just going to make a list of anime i plan to purchase in the future. want to build up my collection.

the last two volumes of nana.
bleach.
the melancholy of haruhi suzamiya.
conan the detective.
shin chan.
rosario + vampire.
 

where do i begin? i feel so lost in this world. what is my purpose? what am i supposed to achieve? i hate the feeling of being lost. there is so many things, but i just don’t know where to start. time is flying by so fast. i hate it. i want to stop time.

hello?
is there anybody in there?
just nod if you can hear me.
is there anyone home?

come on, now.
i hear you’re feeling down.
i can ease your pain.
get you on your feet again.

relax.
i’ll need some information first.
just the basic facts.
can you show me where it hurts?

there is no pain, you are receding.
a distant ship’s smoke on the horizon.
you are only coming through in waves.
your lips move, but i can’t hear what you’re saying.

when i was a child i had a fever.
my hands felt just like two balloons.
now i’ve got that feeling once again,
i can’t explain, you would not understand,
this is not how i am.

i have become, comfortably numb.

couldn’t say it any better…

it feels nice. helps me feel a bit more at peace. my mind has been racing these past few days….make that months.

why does that seem so hard to achieve?

i thought i was getting there, but i still have this empty feeling inside. i feel like i’ll never be happy. just thinking about it brings tears to my eyes.

i don’t know what i want these days. i try and distract myself with things or people, but it seems to only make things worst. what does my heart want? what do I want? i want to run away. far far away, from all of this. start something new. i want to forget, everything.